Erica Nlewedim, a former Big Brother Naija contestant, who got disqualified from the show for threatening violence against another housemate, Laycon, has said that her time in the reality TV show was like being in a prison.
Speaking as a guest on a podcast, ‘I Said What I Said’, Nlewedim said, “It is not easy to be constantly conscious of cameras every time. Obviously, one knows that cameras are there but one can’t be acting or trying to be on one’s best behaviour all the time. It is very stressful. One can do it for the first two weeks but at some point, one would get tired of it. Some people changed but I was just the same. This is how I am. I show myself the way I am. Sometimes, I felt I shouldn’t have shown a particular person a particular side of me but I consoled myself with the thought that we would soon be out of there. I protect myself in the real world but in that world (BBN), it was more like a prison.”
On how she had been able to handle the love and support she got from her fans, she said, “At first, it was very scary. Sometimes, it is still scary. I ask myself what did I even do that is making people like me like this. I am getting used to it.”
The reality star also stated that because people watched her for months on show did not mean they knew her in totality. She added, “Even if you watch me for two months of your life, two month is not what makes me. Different things have happened that makes me who I am. There are still other things you don’t know about me. I heard at some point that the camera was not really on me.”
When queried if she was ever under pressure to live up to fans’ expectations, Nlewedim answered, “A lot of people who are not fans make me feel like I owe my fans my whole life. But, I try not to think that way because that is not the truth. God is the one answering my prayers and He could have used any human being. If He wants to use one and one says no, He would use another person. Feeling the need to live up to expectations? I only live up to my own expectation. Everything I am doing is because I wanted to do it. Everything I do fits into my goals.”
The actress also stated that she did not have time to socialise any more.
She said, “The only time I have for myself is when I am about to sleep. Right now, I am just working. Even if I am getting the money, I am not spending it. I want to spend the money but there is no time to do that. I need to take a break and start spending the money on myself.